Sunday, January 8, 2012

Daniel Fast Day 1 :: Food

I have food issues.

I brought them home from the hospital with my third child. Eating became a cheap past-time for this grown woman who had been brought to her knees by the responsibility demanded of a newborn plus a one-year-old plus a three-year-old. My schedule, my priorities, my activities, my preferences, and my sense of control had acquiesced to three little creatures that were consumers, not producers, on a different food chain. I became the producer by default, and consumed food to compensate.

Eating became the balm and my consolation.

Now my kids are sixteen, thirteen, and twelve; and I am thirty pounds heavier and "tired-er." My food issues have expanded their territory by three dress sizes, and I am no longer in need of balm or consolation.

What does this have to do with the Daniel Fast at CWO Church that starts today? It has to do with confession, a common first stage in prayer and fasting. It also has to do with accountability for me and, hopefully, encouragement for you. I have a hunch I'm not the only American who brought home a little extra balm and consolation one unsuspecting day, and has done battle with over-eating and/or emotional eating off and on ever since.

The first time we fasted in the fashion of Daniel as a church body, I was breastfeeding, so I participated creatively by fasting an hour of sleep each morning for quiet, uninterrupted bible study and prayer.

Even though we've done corporate Daniel fasting many times as a church body, I've never done it perfectly, without cheating; and this time, I'm not even striving for perfection. In fact, I'm doing a pseudo-Daniel Fast--not because I'm pregnant or breast-feeding this time, but because God is prompting me to take on this monster issue in my life through the power of the Holy Spirit.

Winning this battle is going to take longer than 21 days, and will involve more than fruits and veggies. It's going to take total dependence, surrender, spiritual warfare, and gaining back some control I ceded to my rug-rats over a decade ago.

It's time to kick the habit.

I've never had to do that before: quit. Not smoking, gambling, biting my nails or sucking my thumb. I've never had to break a bad habit until now.

It's not going to be easy. I have food issues and a gargantuan fear of failure. But I also have the Holy Spirit to empower me and a desire to please God, a gargantuan one.

What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us?
Romans 8:31

This post is shared in community with Michelle and Laura.


Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...